There just is never any end to the things that one needs to know or learn. There is no shortage of new ideas I want to explore and goals I want to accomplish.
The whole concept is beginning to stress me out. What should I start on next?
In fact, there are so many things to do that sometimes I'm paralyzed by the sheer volume of the things I want to get done. Signing a mobile phone contract makes me feel like I should have paid more attention in university. At times it makes me feel like I should go back and take a law degree!
I make lists, scribble in and out of my day timer and PDA, triage my week and then look at what I really want from life. For me it can get staggering. One of my goals for this year is to learn to meditate. Simple really, until I try to fit the time in to actually do it. Where do I go so my kids won't jump on my head or a list of chores at home won't get in the way? Nothing is ever as simple as it first seems.
Do you ever feel like it is all too much? Maybe we should go to Tibet. I'm sure we could learn to mediate there. I doubt the kids could climb that high anyways. Perfect.
No. Not there yet and quite frankly I actually like my life. My family is great and I have fun almost every day. Today, and maybe for the next little while, I will have to compromise. A cup of tea and a park bench. I don't drink it for the caffeine. I drink for the peace. 15 minutes without anyone bothering me and some time to think about the world. Some how I always find time so therefore it must be available to me...and if I can find that time to think then maybe my "to do" list is possible after all.
All it takes is a cup of tea and everything seems better again.
Take a moment every day to think and calm yourself. Even if all you can do is grab a cuppa. I promise that life will get a little less serious, even if just for those few minutes of personal time.