No on can advise or help you - no one. There is only one this you should do. Go into yourself. Find out the reason that commands you to write; see whether it has spread its roots into the very depths of your heart; confess to yourself whether you would have to die if you were forbidden to write. This most of all: ask yourself in the most silent hour of your night: must I write? Dig into yourself for a deep answer. And, if this answer rings out in assent, if you meet this solemn question with a strong, simple 'I must', then build your life in accordance with this necessity; your whole life, even into its humblest and most indifferent hour, must become a sign and witness tot his impulse.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
When I was younger, I loved watching movies. My particular favourites were Pretty Woman, Dirty Dancing, The Cutting Edge as well as, Sister Act 1 and 2. I really enjoyed one scene in particular in Sister Act 2 - it was when Whoppi Goldberg overheard Lauryn Hill singing and realised how talented and passionate she was was and that she was not going to pursue her dreams due to her defeatist attitude and overbearing mother.
Whoppi confronted her one afternoon on Lauryn's way home from school and said:
I went to my mother who gave me this book called 'Letters To A Young Poet' by Rainer Maria Rilke. He's a fabulous writer. A fellow used to write to him and say: I want to be a writer, please read my stuff. And, Rilke says to this guy; don't ask me about being a writer. If when you wake up in the morning you can think of nothing but writing, then you're a writer. I'm gonna say the same thing to you. If you wake up in the morning and you can't think of anything but singing first, then you're supposed to be a singer girl.
Purpose is the thing in your life you will fight for. It is the ground you will defend at any cost. Purpose is not the same as incentive, but rather the motor behind it, the engine that drives why you have energy for some things and not for others.
For a few people, naming one's purpose comes with remarkable ease. The individual feels it in the deepest part of his or her soul; the purpose has always been there, even if it got lost for a very long while. To find one's true purpose sometimes takes work. Fortunately, the skill it requires is one that every person is blessed with.
Once you know your purpose - that is, what matters - then everything else can fall into place. Getting your purpose clear is defining your truth. What is the purpose of your life? Whatever it is, it had better be something for which you will cross a narrow plank 175 feet above ground, gusts of wind or no gusts, seven days a week no questions asked.